Shwa?...

...and HOW the hell am I 21??? WTF? I feel like a five year old. My goodness, where have the years gone? hahahahaha!

My new place...

...is AMAZING! The landlord is great, we have a pitbull named Franklin, who is great, the place is perfect for Kayla and I, I love Kayla, my bedroom is huge, and I love it. I am just peachy. You all have to come see it someday soon. School starts soon, and I am stoked. Life is super. I found out that basically my landlord Jim and I are the same person, except he is 75 and male. Hahahah, it's great. We love old jazz, feel the same way about fate, believe cars and houses and things have names, and that they name themselves (like Myrtle), love reading...basically I was totally meant to live here. YAY! Miss you all like crazy. UPDATE FOOLS!

WOO

this is my first post on my new laptop. This is tres exciting to me!

hmm

Have any of you felt like you can be surrounded by people and still be absolutely, painfully lonely? Well...I didn't think so until this summer...or maybe this moment. Or this week. I don't know when this feeling started, but it has grown now, and I thought it was worth writing about. I see people all around me making all of these meaningful and fulfilling relationships, and I feel so lonely. Even when I, myself, am making connections of my own. I miss my "in the woods" gang, I miss my UVic friends, I miss having a community in a cast of a play, and I miss having a romantic connection to another human being. Although what I am about to write is probably false...I feel like I am not as missed as I miss others. Does that make sense? I feel like...at this moment...if I faded into the background, and didn't reach out to anyone...no one would reach back to me. And I know that is selfish, and mean, or whatever to feel that. And it IS feel that...I KNOW logically this is all retarded...that it's all a part of my feeling unworthy for certain things...maybe I am just scared about the future changing...I don't know. Man...it COULD just be that I have been chronically exhausted all summer. ha. And I know that my mood swings like a giant pendulum anyways, so tomorrow, I may read this and be all...umm...whaaaat? But for now...this is how I am feeling.

Love you guys. I don't know how I'd live without you all <3

What a great week.

This week has been wonderful. I have put things behind me that I needed to, I reconciled something that has been causing me and others far too much grief for what it was...a misunderstanding..., and I got other things out of the way that I needed to do. God I love when the world just seems to aid your life along. I feel more relaxed and at peace after this week.

Thank the Lord for that!

Here's what I think...

...people should update. Phone calls are expensive...none of you use facebook often...I MISS YOU..and want to know what's going on in your lives. Until I visit, this is my main link with youuuuu. (This is nicely directed towards Rita and Hannah, as I can see Jo, and Ali, and Kathleen has been updating. But even Ali and Jo should update. 'Cause it's fun to read these.)

In other news, Daycamps have started...well training...which means I AM MAKING MONEY! Thank the lord for that one!

That's really it, actually...hahaha.

UPDATE!

Love

Kesinee

AUGH

I wanted to get pets, but then realized I hadn't named my sloth, I went back and named him, but now I have TWO...not ONE...and one is STILL unnamed. How does one go about deleting unnamed pets, so I can have one sloth?