Yerma

So, the show has opened, and I think it is going well. I can also finally say, with confidence, that I am actually proud of myself. I never thought I would ever be given the real chance to play such a meaty and dramatic role, but here I am, and I feel like I am actually doing it some justice to boot! I have been learning things about myself...both things that I need to celebrate in myself, and things that I need to learn to appreciate more. If you know me at all, you should know that I have struggled my whole life with the image I have of myself. I have not always been the most healthy when it comes to my relationship with my physical self, but I can honestly say, I have never felt more beautiful than when I am onstage playing this role. This is an overwhelmingly positive thing for me. Sometimes, however, it throws how I feel about myself in real life in stark contrast...and I know I need to work on it. But I guess in a way that is positive as well. I am also feeling so much more confident in my choice to become an actor, and one with a varied and fulfilling career. I don't want to be type cast my whole life, and now that I know I can play something like this, I feel like I can fight against being the clown my whole life. I am actually SO proud of the whole cast. I think we all work together SO SO SO well, and without the support of everyone, I feel like there could have been many a break down for me on this journey. Also...two words: Warwick Dobson.
He is our director, and I seriously am in love with the process and environment he gave us all to work within. I have never had a more wonderful acting experience than this one. I had to take SO many risks to play this role, both professional and personal, and I feel like if it weren't for Warwick and the cast it would have been SO much more difficult to push myself to where I am now. This whole experience has made me really feel solidly that acting is what I am meant to do. I am so appreciative, and feel so lucky and privileged to have been given an opportunity like this one. We'll see how the whole run goes, but I am feeling extremely optimistic about it! <3 Until next time!